Nature

There is so much serenity in nature and I'm loving the chance I have to get out there and enjoy it. This morning I got up and went for a good long bike ride. It was great weather and the group was nice. I'm sore now, apparently I should have worn the padded pants but I didn't...oy vey.
I'm proud to announce that I finished my Shakespeare essay!!! YIPPEE!! That just means I have one more revision on my Senior Seminar Paper, need to complete my essay for Women's Writers (it's almost done, just needs a bit of touching up), and need to write a full essay for Multicultural Class (that one is started but needs a good few more pages). I'm making good head way. After those few essays I'll actually be finished...I can't wait. It sure feels good to think of myself as a college graduate.

Whatev...

I was gonna post about this great person in my life...but now I'm bitter and angry and not interested in writing about them...people disappoint...
On a different note...I have a ton of homework I really need to get done. I'm not feeling motivated and my muse is no where to be found. I'm frustrated by the whole writing process and need to just sit down and DO IT. Maybe tomorrow....

Update to March 26th Posting

On March 26th I announced that I had 52 pages of writing to complete in just 25 days. I would like to provide an update on my completely insane writing requirements.
As of today, I have 13 days to complete:
1 Virginia Woolf paper of at least 5 pages still gotta do that...
1 The Grass is Singing paper of at least 7 pages still gotta do that...
1 Virginia Woolf paper of at least 14 pages (not be over lapped with the first paper) only 2 pages left here...thank God!
1 Annotated bibliography for King Lear paper DONE!!
1 Shakespeare's King Lear paper of at least 12 pages still gotta do that...
1 Shakespeare's The Tempest paper of at least 4 pages DONE!!
1 Black Elk Speaks paper of at least 3 pages DONE!!
1 Upton Sinclair paper on The Jungle of at least 3 pages still gotta do that...
1 Paper on The Bluest Eye of at least 3 pages DONE!!

That means that in 13 days, I need to complete...29 pages...urrrrggggggggg!

Technology Is Not Your Friend

I am having the absolute worst time figuring out a video disc formatting onto computer...grrr....grrr....grrr....I've been trying since late lastnight and it's just not working. I have to present this disc for a grade tomorrow and I feel like such a whiner but..."I can't do it." Mind you I said that in the most nasally voice I could produce.
HELP!
Where are my brilliant friends when I need them most?

Shakespeare Causes Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

After spending four hours working on a Shakespeare group presentation it's safe to say I'm EXHAUSTED! We all showed up at noon thinking it would be super quick and simple. Four hours later, none of us had eaten, we were thirsty and dying to leave!!
But...there were good things too...Ryan and I had a good time making jokes, laughing and just...enjoying each other in our Shakespeare stupidity. Although at one point in time I accidentally called him "Brian" which didn't go over so well...oops! Hahaha! The names are just so close, it wasn't that I was thinking about anyone other than the person standing in front of me. He has such interesting stories, he's traveled to India, Asia and various other places. He thinks that Maine will be a fun adventure for me. I've been thinking about him more lately than would seem logical. He really brings out a me I like. I feel smart, funny and sexy around him. My jokes and wit seem so natural when he's around. It's odd that one person can make you feel things about yourself like that, any yet I know that when I'm around someone who doesn't make me feel that way...I don't really notice.

Living on a Zip Drive

In my attempt to finish the semester in exactly 25 more days, I've found that my life has suddenly begun to revolve around a zip drive. This zip drive has become, perhaps, the most important piece of vital school material that I have. In the next 25 days I will attempt to complete:
1 Virginia Woolf paper of at least 5 pages

1 Frost in May paper of at least 7 pages

1 Virginia Woolf paper of at least 14 pages (not be over lapped with the first paper)
1 Annotated bibliography for King Lear paper
1 Shakespeare's King Lear paper of at least 12 pages
1 Shakespeare's The Tempest paper of at least 4 pages
1 Black Elk Speaks paper of at least 3 pages
1 Upton Sinclair paper on The Jungle of at least 3 pages
1 Paper on The Bluest Eye of at least 3 pages

Mind you this is the first time I've actually looked at the work load...and I have totalled this to mean that in 25 days I need to write 52 pages!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!! I think I'm gonna go curl up in a small ball and cry now...

I'm Not Sure It's a Good Thing

The news reported today "those with more than 12 years of education -- more than a high school diploma -- can expect to live to 82; for those with 12 or fewer years of education, life expectancy is 75."

I'm worried about this. I'm not sure I want to be 82! I wonder if it's possible that after 20 years of education, the opposite is true. If that's the case then I'll be okay. You figure I did my 12 years of HS education. Then I did 5 years of undergraduate. Now I'm moving on to at least 2 years of graduate...so that's 19 if I finish on time. Ha! What's the point of living to be 82 if you spend 25% of your life in school?

And It's Not Even Because of A Guy

Ahhhh...I'm falling behind in school and it's not even because of a guy. Who would have thought it possible!! Last semester I fell behind because I fell head over heels for a guy and started skipping classes, staying out late and just not focusing on my priorities. I would guess that I did about 50% of the assignments and attended class only about 25% of the time.

But, this semester I have no one to blame but myself. Right now, I can be found sitting outside my classroom, writing a blog. Once the blog is finished I will attempt to create a paper for this class which is due...any minute really...if I had any motivation at all I'd stop this blog and do my dame work!!!

Oh SO Much to Share

School started today...there is just so much to talk about!


First off, the universe is playing a cosmic joke on me...hahahah...not funny! At school today there was this guy and he really caught my eye. I heard stuff about his winter break and it was great and interesting and I thought, yes...someone I want to see more of. Then I introduced myself and he said "Hi, I'm Brian."

I believe my response was "Oh fuck, I gotta go!"

Hate to say it, but...no more Brian's. I'm moving on to the C's in the alphabet - no more B's!!! I've dated two Brian's (one who is now a REALLY great friend, the other a very bad experience), a B* and a Brett. NO MORE!!! Especially the Brian's...I know, it seems silly but I think that perhaps my history with that name is just finally at its end and I need to be on edge when the universe sends me that energy. It's a big red flag! I should have known that after the first one...it just takes me more time than some...



Second, classes look good this semester. I met with an adviser and I got to drop one so now I have two courses and then...GRADUATION!! I can't wait!!



Third, Yoga went well today, it was uplifting and a really moving course. I actually had a very scary feeling during the post Shivasna portion...I had my eyes closed and I was listening to Shari talk and I got this feeling that I was sitting in infinity. Have you ever felt that? It was rather scary and actually made me a little uneasy.