Some more of my wild and off the wall theories...
It is possible that the meaning of life is to try to experience the journey to knowledge (or knowing something - anything really) without including your own impressions. The journey to knowing what really exists outside of oneself.
G.E. Moore asked "Does beauty exist without human perception?" The question is - does it? I believe that nature is so beautiful and whole in and of itself that it does exist as such without our interpretation of it.
Trauma is processed when we are not in control. Trauma is processed in a part of our mind that we can never control and ultimately can not ever fully understand. This creates the idea of "that". It's like that. It's this big. It's like. The concept that the closer we come to knowing something, the more imaginary our description of that something to one another gets. (I think I have to stand in front of you and use my hands to explain this one accurately.)
"Re-fashioned(,) her memory of him, and there it stayed in the mind affecting one almost like a work of art." - Viriginia Woolf
This idea that our memories are art is incredible!! The ideas that we create and establish in our minds are magical in such a way because they are art that we can't ever show to any one else. This form of art is true and pure in the most sincere fashion.
Art is an attempt to take something out of the world. The key here is to take OUT OF the world. Art is a cookie cutter of the living. Therefore, art can only freeze something by destroying it. By interrupting the life that exists at that moment, we can create art, a something that is frozen in time, yet imperfect.
Brad said "We're going to die alone, apart, isolated and misunderstood. Ultimately this attempt to communicate is in vain." 2/21/08
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Friday, February 22, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
A Fucking Genius
I can't recall if I've written before about Virginia Woolf, but let me say with a firm belief - she is a fucking genius!!
Woolf's To The Lighthouse is a required reading for all people seeking meaning and depth in their lives. She writes about truth and how although we experience something one way and look back at it in a different way, both ways are true. She also says that "people interpret one another in ways that reflect their own needs." This is so true! I've always wondered why and how people came to see me so incorrectly - this is how. People don't see you as you are, they see you as they want to.
Both of these ideas are fairly hard to understand; however, take some time and read the novel - it's amazing!
Woolf's To The Lighthouse is a required reading for all people seeking meaning and depth in their lives. She writes about truth and how although we experience something one way and look back at it in a different way, both ways are true. She also says that "people interpret one another in ways that reflect their own needs." This is so true! I've always wondered why and how people came to see me so incorrectly - this is how. People don't see you as you are, they see you as they want to.
Both of these ideas are fairly hard to understand; however, take some time and read the novel - it's amazing!
Monday, February 18, 2008
Inner Right-ness
He's so good to me. He's kind, he's giving, he knows how to receive, we uniformally click...but it's not right.
I firmly believe that loving someone is a choice we make. We decide if they are worthy and then we expect them as they are or we cast them off. We take those things that we know to be flaws in another person and we make the effort to ignore them. We make the decision to love.
I was told the other day, if all you can say is that he's fun to hang out with, then he's not good enough. It's true. If you're in a relationship with someone and all you can think of is that they are a body to fill an empty space, then it's not right. A relationship should have an inner right-ness. You should feel butterflies when you think of the person's face. Your heart should race when you imagine them calling. The idea of not having them in your life should hurt! If it doesn't, it's not right.
If you know someone who makes you feel this inner-rightness, don't let them go! Make the choice to love them!
Today someone told me that they really cared for someone and they dumped them because they couldn't change the person and the person didn't want to change. I wanted to strangle this individual. We don't have to change anyone, you need to be able to look within your self and understand that no one is perfect, if you care for someone, make the choice to care for all of them, not just certain parts. So you don't like it when they make you jealous, get over it! So you don't like when the expect something from you, get over it!! When you enter a relationship with someone you are committing to give a shit. You are saying "I want to learn your flaws and I want to learn to love them."
Cinnamon told me once that I was in a relationship that ended because the guy decided he couldn't be all that I deserved - he wasn't able to be that and he was doing me a favor by letting me go. I was ANGRY! Angry at myself and angry at him. I was furious and to some degree still get angry when I think about it. When I make the decision to be in a relationship with someone, I'm saying that I'm going to give you 110% and all I'm asking in return is that you give me your all - if that's 15%...fine! Cinnamon told me that this guy was giving his 110% but he couldn't keep it up and the disappointment of letting me down was too great.
I get it, in a relationship we can disappoint ourselves and we can disappoint others. I've done both and I expect that you have too. I expect you to disappoint. I expect to disappointment myself (and you at times). What is done with that disappointment is what makes all the difference. If you love me, you'll teach me, you'll take my flaws and you'll accept them but you'll also know that I want to please you and with your help we can find a common ground.
I'm going to choose to love you. You may not think you deserve it or can live up to that...but I'm going to because love isn't a feeling or an emotion, it's a choice!
I firmly believe that loving someone is a choice we make. We decide if they are worthy and then we expect them as they are or we cast them off. We take those things that we know to be flaws in another person and we make the effort to ignore them. We make the decision to love.
I was told the other day, if all you can say is that he's fun to hang out with, then he's not good enough. It's true. If you're in a relationship with someone and all you can think of is that they are a body to fill an empty space, then it's not right. A relationship should have an inner right-ness. You should feel butterflies when you think of the person's face. Your heart should race when you imagine them calling. The idea of not having them in your life should hurt! If it doesn't, it's not right.
If you know someone who makes you feel this inner-rightness, don't let them go! Make the choice to love them!
Today someone told me that they really cared for someone and they dumped them because they couldn't change the person and the person didn't want to change. I wanted to strangle this individual. We don't have to change anyone, you need to be able to look within your self and understand that no one is perfect, if you care for someone, make the choice to care for all of them, not just certain parts. So you don't like it when they make you jealous, get over it! So you don't like when the expect something from you, get over it!! When you enter a relationship with someone you are committing to give a shit. You are saying "I want to learn your flaws and I want to learn to love them."
Cinnamon told me once that I was in a relationship that ended because the guy decided he couldn't be all that I deserved - he wasn't able to be that and he was doing me a favor by letting me go. I was ANGRY! Angry at myself and angry at him. I was furious and to some degree still get angry when I think about it. When I make the decision to be in a relationship with someone, I'm saying that I'm going to give you 110% and all I'm asking in return is that you give me your all - if that's 15%...fine! Cinnamon told me that this guy was giving his 110% but he couldn't keep it up and the disappointment of letting me down was too great.
I get it, in a relationship we can disappoint ourselves and we can disappoint others. I've done both and I expect that you have too. I expect you to disappoint. I expect to disappointment myself (and you at times). What is done with that disappointment is what makes all the difference. If you love me, you'll teach me, you'll take my flaws and you'll accept them but you'll also know that I want to please you and with your help we can find a common ground.
I'm going to choose to love you. You may not think you deserve it or can live up to that...but I'm going to because love isn't a feeling or an emotion, it's a choice!
Friday, February 15, 2008
Pre-Linguistic
*Pardon the generalities used when referring to women and men, I understand that they don't apply to all but it's easier to explain it in that fashion.
*Also pardon my deep philosophical ideas here, if you don't get it or have questions, ask me...
Concept 1: Language is a patriarichal creation. Words were created by men and therefore are good at expressing their (men's) ideas. However, because this is something created by a man, women are left out of this loop and are not always represented in words. For women, language is not essential if you can reach someone with your eyes. Sometimes, a pre-linguistic feeling can be powerful, adding a word to that feeling can cheapen it by putting it into a tidy little box with a label. For example, female telepathy. Sometimes, women can exchange thoughts with other women and sometimes men, without saying anything. It's something that comes from another realm and is beyond words. Being forced to say it out loud means that you don't have the connection with that other person you would like to have and therefore must say it in the only way that you are able to connect. There is power in the words we don't speak.
Concept 2: The philosopher, Ari Bergson discusses the idea of la duree (the duration) which I feel is extremely true and pertinant to understanding life in general. This is my theories of what he has to say and how I preceive them to interact with us every day.
Bergson's theory says that time is not a linear thing, you don't start at 8am and end at 8pm like a line. Rather, time is like a snowball and as you progress through it, you are constantly drawing on, learning from, and adding to the future by your present/past experiences. This idea creates the understanding that the same action doesn't always create the same reaction in you. How we handle the situation now and the exact same situation in two years may be different. This is because our impressions vary from moment to moment and we can never experience anything in the same fashion as we did just minutes before.
This theory means that the idea of emotional baggage is real. However, the efforts we make to get rid of emotional baggage are a war to never be won. We are always going to carry that with us and it will always play a role in our reality. We must learn to acknowledge that "It's over, but I'm carrying it with me."
The idea that we don't live in our physical reality at all times is essential to understanding Bergson's theory. Sometimes we live simply within our own mental realities and these are just as real as anything else. This mental reality can be called "it". Whatever "it" was and is, is our personal property and no degree of language will ever be able to accurately give that experience to someone else. "It" will always be yours in it's entirety.
The snowball effect creates no lines between the past, present and future and forces us to live all of them at once. Because of this, there is no next step and certainly no next step as we like to conceive it.
*Also pardon my deep philosophical ideas here, if you don't get it or have questions, ask me...
Concept 1: Language is a patriarichal creation. Words were created by men and therefore are good at expressing their (men's) ideas. However, because this is something created by a man, women are left out of this loop and are not always represented in words. For women, language is not essential if you can reach someone with your eyes. Sometimes, a pre-linguistic feeling can be powerful, adding a word to that feeling can cheapen it by putting it into a tidy little box with a label. For example, female telepathy. Sometimes, women can exchange thoughts with other women and sometimes men, without saying anything. It's something that comes from another realm and is beyond words. Being forced to say it out loud means that you don't have the connection with that other person you would like to have and therefore must say it in the only way that you are able to connect. There is power in the words we don't speak.
Concept 2: The philosopher, Ari Bergson discusses the idea of la duree (the duration) which I feel is extremely true and pertinant to understanding life in general. This is my theories of what he has to say and how I preceive them to interact with us every day.
Bergson's theory says that time is not a linear thing, you don't start at 8am and end at 8pm like a line. Rather, time is like a snowball and as you progress through it, you are constantly drawing on, learning from, and adding to the future by your present/past experiences. This idea creates the understanding that the same action doesn't always create the same reaction in you. How we handle the situation now and the exact same situation in two years may be different. This is because our impressions vary from moment to moment and we can never experience anything in the same fashion as we did just minutes before.
This theory means that the idea of emotional baggage is real. However, the efforts we make to get rid of emotional baggage are a war to never be won. We are always going to carry that with us and it will always play a role in our reality. We must learn to acknowledge that "It's over, but I'm carrying it with me."
The idea that we don't live in our physical reality at all times is essential to understanding Bergson's theory. Sometimes we live simply within our own mental realities and these are just as real as anything else. This mental reality can be called "it". Whatever "it" was and is, is our personal property and no degree of language will ever be able to accurately give that experience to someone else. "It" will always be yours in it's entirety.
The snowball effect creates no lines between the past, present and future and forces us to live all of them at once. Because of this, there is no next step and certainly no next step as we like to conceive it.
Friday, February 8, 2008
God's Knee-Cap
Date went well...he's a good guy. He's got a lot to offer and knows how to step up and take/ask for what he wants. He would know where to draw the line with me and how to encourage me to be a better fit for him through learning. He's got the energy and desire to put into someone the effort needed to make a relationship work. Anyway...onto bigger and better things...
Do you think that maybe we're all just part of God's knee-cap? (Another individuals deep theoretical concept)...hehehe...
Can you believe that I've been on my own for almost two months? Wow! It's been a while and yet it feels like yesterday. Amazing how time can be longer or shorter than it actually is...does that make any sense?
I have exciting plans for tomorrow, I can't wait. First I have a dog thing, then I have this program I'm going to which should be interesting (can't wait to tell you all about it), and then I'm going out at night for a good time with some really great friends who have planned out a wild and yet totally sane evening of my favorite activities!
Do you think that maybe we're all just part of God's knee-cap? (Another individuals deep theoretical concept)...hehehe...
Can you believe that I've been on my own for almost two months? Wow! It's been a while and yet it feels like yesterday. Amazing how time can be longer or shorter than it actually is...does that make any sense?
I have exciting plans for tomorrow, I can't wait. First I have a dog thing, then I have this program I'm going to which should be interesting (can't wait to tell you all about it), and then I'm going out at night for a good time with some really great friends who have planned out a wild and yet totally sane evening of my favorite activities!
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