Work

I'm struggling with my new job. I'm frustrated at being thrown into something and then being pulled out of it...I feel like I'm on a yo-yo. I expressed this to my boss today and we're gonna try and work on improving that. It's just hard right now and whether I'm up for the emotional task of getting this to work or if I need to jump the boat now and save my emotional sanity...then...well...we'll see.
I miss the river! I wish I could just hang out there and not have to deal with anything that the "real world" has to offer. I'm finding as each day passes that I'm not on the water, I start to miss it a bit more and I start plotting ways of getting back to the water. I know I'm not alone...the other guides are feeling the same magnetism of the river.

Wrapping it Up - River Style

I bought pictures of the rafting trip today. They're awesome! They show the boat flipping in slow motion!
Today was another good day on the water. My feet are totally torn up, but it's all good. As great a time as I've having - home sure will be nice and I sure do miss my doggie!

White White White White Water!

Another good day rafting! Randy is leaving camp tonight and that kinda bites. I like him, he's super sweet, smart, kind and hilarious. His energy is contagious!!! I hope that he'll exist in my life in the future.
Brad was okay today. I think we'll probably be friends after this venture...it seems like what we both may find most suiting.
I'm still not sure I'm ready to date...I think I may just need to give more time to myself.

Cruzing on the River

Today's energy was very bizarre. I woke up feeling out of my element and by noon I was ready to cry, but...a new guide, Canada, took us down Hospital Bar and we flipped the boat. It was great and a total adrenaline rush!
On a different note, Brad, the guy I was chaing when I made the crazy decision to come here, yelled at me on the water today. I felt hurt. It bothered me more than it should have and really made me put some more questioning into just who he is and the perhaps false perception I have created of him.

Rafting It Up

Rafting camp was good today. I had a lot of fun and we nearly died when Chad drove the wrong line down Troublemaker (South Fork American River). I'm learning a lot about just what it means to be a part of a really rocking team. I've found that being silent and listening to people really does teach you a ton!!
I'll admit to a quick cell phone check today (I've been here 3.5 days). Calls on voice mail included: 1. Alena 2. Fernando 3. Pom Rescue.
I miss Alena! It's been far too long since I've seen her or Akiko and I certainly hope that we can see each other more regularly.

Woo-Hoo

I'm at Rafting Guide School this week. It's good! The people are wonderful and the waters are cold. I do have a slight concern since I got here, I've been staying up late and waking up early. I'm a little worried about becoming emotionally quack quack since I know my bodies steps towards crazy 1. no sleep 2. no eat 3. EXPLOSION!