Unexpected and Unwanted

*(&! (*&! (*&! He's so wonderful. We went out last night and I drank WAY too much, ended up puking in the street. He stayed with me all night and even wanted to kiss me in the morning. SO I'm just getting into bed and who texts me? ---Brandon! My life is @&#(ed up! Brandon is being replaced and that's scary for me.

Adjusting to Reality

I realized that I needed to suck it up. I shouldn't be with my guy every minute, it's not normal. So, I told him today how I felt - how when I don't see him often I get frustrated. He was extremely receptive. It sure was nice to finally have someone I'm with acknowledge my feelings! I'm scared, am I really ready to try this again?

Enough

I'm dating someone new. He gives me a billion compliments and I like that. We've only been dating for less than a week but I feel like it's not enough. Is it taht I don't think he's enough or that I just want to rush trhough this phase into one that's more fulfulling? I'm getting frustrated because I can't figure it out - and of course when I'm upset I take it out on the dude. I'm sure he'll run soon - no one is ever strong enough to help me figure this out.

Returning to the Scene of the Crime

Call it what you will but, I'm dating someone. We talked and we both agreed that we wanna give it a try. BARF! Talk about nervous. I don't do this well. I don't date. We all know what happened the last time I dated someone. Although in the long run I'm very happy that I ended up where I did - the short term was something I'm not able to handle again. Dating isn't my thing and this can only end badly but I suppose I'm returning to the scene of the crime for another look.

Contemplations From the Other Side

I'm going to start dating again - maybe - someday! :) Ha!
Anyway, when I do, I'm going to start taking notes. The metaphor was used recently that for normal people, dating is the process of writing a report. Unforunately for me, dating has been an experiment and I haven't even bothered to take lab notes. Ha! Moving forward I'm going to at least try to take lab notes.

Male Counterpart

I have met a man who is extremely like me. It's strange how I feel like I'm looking at a mirror. He does things in his life that remind me of me...two years ago. I've changed and don't really roll like that anymore but overall - it's rather entertaining to watch someone just like me.

Many Levels of Growth

I had a great day! I learned some really amazing stuff about good manangement and leadership today. I had the priviledge of getting to work with Lee Scott of Unleashing Leaders. Everything he said seemed to new to me and yet it all hit the nail on the head. Amazing!

On a different note, I made a good stride in my personal life...I've been playing around with this guy and today I realized - hey..."he's just not that into me" and I've decided that I should probably ditch that and go find someone who actually gives a rat. WOW! I've never been able to do that, I've never been that girl, and yet - I am that girl, I am doing it and it feels like something I should have done a long time ago.