Still Searching

Today I got up and put up the Christmas tree, decorated it, painted parts of the house, went to a job interview, and then came home to bake some cookies. Busy, busy! Now I'm sitting in a quiet house watching a silly TV show. It's strange how I haven't really been alone at all today and yet I'm feeling lonely. I feel like there is something missing, something that I should be out there searching for...it's confusing to me and yet instead of trying to figure it all out, I find myself attempting to create my own destractions.