I wore my lace panties today and apparently it changed my attitude. That or I gave off an air that screamed I was in dire need of sex! Go figure. I got asked out by 4 different guys today. They are all super sweet and cute...but...I told all of them yes on the condition it was strictly as a friend, I'm not looking to date right now. This of course made two of them think I was completely uninterested and they are long gone. The other two said that would be just fine and we're moving forward. It sure would be nice to meet a guy and really get to know him before throwing my body and soul into another flop of a relationship.
On another note, I'm tired!! I'm tired of putting my whole heart into stuff, even when good is produced. I feel like I've hit a real wall in my life and I just need some cooling off time where I don't have to worry about any one else's feelings and emotions and I can just take care of ME. This seems to worry some of my friends but unfortunately I just can't put energy into their concerns right now. I have no energy to give - I need it all. The more grounded overall I get the more I seem to want less of what the world (in general) has to offer. Sure there are good things but when you feel good about yourself and your own life, there is good in everything equally.
