I feel like the world (the cosmos) is trying to tell me something, I'm not sure what though, I'm trying to listen and it's hard because when I do...everything is screaming something different!
Today at school, we talked about "the other." This is an idea of Lacan's which describes the ideas of human love. We always think we want someone until we get them and then we find that they don't provide that fulfillment that we expected and we feel obligated to move on. However, the problem is that this imaginary fulfillment doesn't exist and we often find ourselves leaving those we should be with only to find that we've made an unchangeable mistake. Ever heard "It's too good to be true," well the theory is that if it seems that way, it's because it is too good to be true and therefore isn't true.
This idea is something I've been talking about and blogging about for a while now, strange how it was the entire topic of my course today. What does it all mean? Where does it all come from? Does any of it even matter?
Attempting to listen to my heart and my mind is harder than I ever thought it would be. My heart is telling me one thing and my mind something totally different. I'm living my life right now in the present and not the past or future because when I stop and think about either one...this is where I go...this ranting, this raving, this complete confusion.
