Tuesday, February 26, 2008

This is direct to YOU!!!

This entry is 100% for you. YOU YOU YOU. YOU know who you are and if you question it - ask me!

First off - you've been on my brain all day and I just don't have the balls to call and tell you this so a blog entry is the best I can do.
You do mean more to me than "that" and to say that you mean more to me than that at one time would be totally incorrect because you mean more to me than "that" now! You are so incredibly valuable to me. I'm entirely sure how you could have gotten any other impression, but it doesn't matter because it's the wrong one!
You matter to me! You are perhaps the only stable person in my life right now. You are my rock! I hope to keep you as a life long friend, I just imagined that you'd always be a part of my life and I never really questioned your permanency. I don't intend to do that now either.

If you were hurt because I left out a lot of the stuff we do together, don't be! I left it out because it doesn't need to be examined and reviewed - the stuff we do together is sacred.
You asked me today, "why don't I get to do the fun stuff with you?" I've thought about this because it wasn't something I realized at all...I guess, the answer is because with these other people, I normally just jump on the band wagon. If you come up with something you wanna do and you want me to go, I'll be there! I'm just not normally the one to think up the fun stuff. I'll try, if it's a way for me to show you I care, I'll try. I do care. You are my best friend and if I've hurt you I'm terribly terribly sorry! You have no clue just how much.