I've hit my target weight. That means that in one months I've dropped 25 pounds!!!! Now I need to work on toning what I've got since I still have a few problem areas. The amazing part of the weight loss, is that this time, I didn't shrink in the butt or boobs...yippee!!
Anyway, the big day is coming and I am now officially starting to get nervous. Very nervous for that matter. Up until today, I just saw the day as so far off that I wasn't stressing, then today...it hit me. Tomorrow is the big day!!!
I'm going into the doc and I'm coming out with a plan for a drug free lifestyle. I'm legitimately scared! I've been on Effexor for eight years and it has been good to me. I remember when I first went on it and the reasons. I remember the life I was living at that time and I can't imagine going back to that. I know it's a fear that has no base now, I'm a different person and I have a great support system for coming off the drug. Yet, I'm constantly in a state of questioning myself - am I ready? It would be a huge success to come off it. I need to have faith in myself and my own strength. I need to remember that I am "good enough" and I deserve this.
I'm hoping to take an Ayurveda workshop next week. It's a sister practice to Yoga that works on centering the tridosha. The idea is that when these aspects of your life are aligned and cared for properly, your body will be healthy. It's an all natural lifestyle system that helps to center, balance and focus your life. It's about eating right, exercising and maintaining an equilibrium of the self.
Side note:
I'm working on stepping out of my little box and trying things that I wouldn't normally do or things that make me uncomfortable. I recommend everyone do it!!! I'm loving it, surprisingly enough. So far I've learned that I enjoy climbing and I've made three great new girl friends.
Friday after work, I'm getting together with a group and we're driving to San Jose to hit up an "Adult Arcade" called Dave and Buster's. Not sure how this is different from a casino, but I'm gonna try it anyway!
